Cause you’re in a position to do a lot of damage
Irreversible things I know you’d never do
But my mind will never back down from a war
And with 4 weeks left, what’s the worst we could do?
And just 2 beers in, I’m smiling like we did a year ago
You were my introduction to post modernism
Because nothing of what you said meant fucking anything
You always joked about liking beer,
But couldn’t stand the taste of hops
And it pisses me off that I remember that
I literally don’t know how to feel about caring so much for a person
Who was too afraid to admit that they fucked up the second they got to college
As if change were bad
I’m going off brand, as far as love goes, to something you couldn’t take home to mom or dad
You lied about me, you lied to me
And truth be told it hurts to hear that you think so low of yourself
You’re a fucking treasure if you let yourself be
I’m not gonna apologize for trying to make things work
I’ll apologize for not listening a third of the time
We were never people to walk away from things that weren’t worth it
Truth be told, I’m still arguing with myself whether we were worth it
I’ll admit it, I wrote really angry songs about you
Going from striving to be better for you
To striving to be better than you
We are competitive by nature
And truth be told, by losing you,
I think I fucking won
But please don’t take these words as truth
I think it all boils down to me being half-mad at myself
For caring about you, despite having no reason to
I am half-mad for thought that the lost conversation we had,
And potentially will ever have,
Was about weed, and selling yourself short
Honest to God, I hope you find everything you’re looking for
And honest to God, I hope it has nothing to do with me
Congratulations, you’ve discovered immortality